I felt pretty good for the first few days of this process. I had myself convinced that it was going to be tough, but not too tough. I could totally do it! No problem. Then I opened my refrigerator. Cheese, cheese everywhere, and yogurt, and bread, and eggs.
Cue meltdown #1, I skip dinner I just can't deal with it.
That night I have to get out of the allergen fest that is my apartment so I go out. I can't drink because pretty much every alcoholic beverage has yeast in it. I'm starving and irritable (these 2 things go hand-in-hand for me). I leave the bar and have an epiphany, a burrito! If it doesn't have cheese, I might be able to eat it. Filiberto's at 1 am. Success! I can't say it was healthy, but a carne asada burrito doesn't have any of my allergens and it felt really good to eat.
Saturday brought with it 2 more meltdowns in the form of a bridal shower (cupcakes!! I love cupcakes!) and an Applebee's menu (I stared at if for 10 minutes willing myself not to cry).
Today, lunch with friends at an old fashioned soda fountain (ice cream everywhere!) and grocery shopping (are you kidding me?!? Yeast, eggs, and dairy, how the heck do I avoid all that stuff????). Meltdowns #4 and #5 led to me curled up on my couch crying as soon as I got home.
Ok, maybe this is going to be harder than I expected. I think I might just stay in my apartment for a while, it's safe here.
Ugh. This is the process I went through at 17. I so remember those feelings, like it was yesterday. Hang in there. It'll all be worth it.
ReplyDeleteI'm having a heart attack imagining life without Four Peaks beer and cheeseburgers...... you poor, poor creature!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement Sara! Hanging in there is the only option!!
ReplyDeleteKrissy, I KNOW!! It's brutal. Everyone I know who has food allergies tells me I have to focus on what i CAN have to make it through. So far that hasn't been a raging success.
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